Empty
is who i am...
Deep down inside,
an emptiness that couldn't be fill...

Lonely
is actually my best friends...
no one knows my loneliness,
cause i acted well out side...

Love
will never comes to me...
That's de reason why,
I had replace it with money...

Boring
that's how my life sound like...
Lived everyday,
like waiting 2 die...

Dream
is de only things i want 2 achieve...
i working hard 4 it,
bother what comes my way,
i just won't give up!!!

Heart
is what i had given out...
But as 4 de result,
no one even reply me a thank you
but FUCK YOU!!!

Sadness
I do feel it sometimes...
But i deal with it
b4 sumone found it out...

Secret
everyone had their secret..
as 4 me,
i been keeping it long enough
but i ain't telling yet...

Mask
is what everyone wearing now...
don't you feel tire,
why can't just put it down???


xxx patrick xxx

It's always so difficult 2 predict,
how a person life might change in few years time.
Sum might doing well,
sum still wOrking hard on their dream,
sum remain de same as always,
as for SUM others,
u dun even bother wat they doing lately...

It's always amazed 2 c, those who success in their life,
while others still wOrking hard 4 their future...
It do make me jealous 2 c frens that get support from their parents,
or just lucky enough 2 b born in a rich family....
for ppl like me,
i'm still wOrking hard n trying my luck 4 my dream n future...
i dun hav financial n parents support 4 wat i trying 2 achieve.
n yet, i'm decide 2 aim high, n wish myself luck...
most importantly DUN GIV UP!!!!

anyway,
those wasn't my purpose 2 write my blog 2day..
i'm actually wanna write about SUM ONE who loose him/herself lately,
n yet he/she nv notice itself.... how sad!!!!
If u think u r the one i'm talking about,
de answer is NO not u, but YOU
yes YOU, i hope u reading this right now!!!!

4 Christ sick,
pls do open up ur eyes boys/girls.....
how old r u now? stil can't use ur brain 2 think properly?
I dunno wat the hell is going on with YOU,
but i do know wat u doing right now, was so !@#$%^&*!!!!
trowing de shit around, flirting here n there...
u making urself cheap... i mean really CHEAP!!!!
shame on YOU!!!!

Y on earth u doing that for???
that r billions of ppl in de world, n yet u choose this one!!!!
the one that always been a sport light among those 38 aunty...
seriously man!!!! y this fella????
i know i doesn't hav de right to judge u 2,
put since u r with this fella, others getting annoying cause of u 2 ...
If u r trying 2 revenge or sumthing,
i can tell u right now, no one will even bother ...
go kill urself b4 sum one did it 2 u soon...
If u say u join de wrong frens,
i can only said u r cheap n brainless ...
can't u decide wat u wanna do 4 urself??

After wat u hav said about ur's brother/sister years ago,
yet u ain't any difference with them,
n mayb de only difference can b,
it's that YOU ARE WORST DEN THEM!!!!!!!
i'm actually hoping u to reading this, n realise that i'm talking about u,
u ain't de one i know years ago,
u r now more like a bitch den a human!!!
i feel sorry 4 u, n specially ur mum...
i can imaging she crying alone everynight,
while praying 2 God that she b able 2 bring her child back to normal,
wat a poor n helpless mum...

n as 4 buddy,
i fell sorry n yet helpless to u,
let hope time will clean de mess up,
n ppl won't sing it so loud to de world...
if not, i really think u gonna hide ur face under else where...

haiz....
pity 2 both of u...
wish u luck.... XD

Doea GAY matter 2 You???

found this in a new frens blog from fb,
it's quite interesting n truth about wat ppl thinks about GAY
thought wanna share these 2 everyone oso too....
~ hope u won't mind, willy ^^ ~

I am chatting with the people all over the world.

I met lots of people on the net.

Everybody has their own value for me.

I had chances to know gay people on net.

I cannot say I am understanding gays completely,

at least trying to understand them.

I am a straight man.

if you asked "What does gay mean?"

to me in a few years ago.

I could say

"a man who has a physical desire for other men"

In years, I met gays on the net, and

have an idea about those people.

if you ask "What does gay mean?" now,

I can say

a man who has to hide himself

to protect himself from the society,

a man who is rejected by the society,

a man who is trying to reject being a gay

behaving like a straight man,

a man who may be a close friend, a buddy and a father,

a man who may feel helpless and needs our help,

a man who may feel hopeless, needs us to give our support,

a man who feels lonely, needs us to share his loneliness

WHAT REALLY MATTERS?

My parents asked if I'm gay,

I said does it matter,

They said not really,

I told them yes I'm Gay,

They said get out of our lives,

I guess it mattered!

My Boss said are you gay,

I said does it matter,

My boss said not really,

I told my boss, yes I'm gay,

My boss said you're fired queer,

I guess it mattered!

My friend asked if I'm gay,

I said does it matter,

My friend said no not really,

I told my friend yes I'm gay,

My friend said don't call me friend,

I guess it mattered!

My lover said do you love me,

I said does it matter,

My lover said yes,

I told my lover yes I love you,

My lover said hold me in your arms,

For the first time something in my life matters.

God asked, Do you love yourself,

I said does it matter,

God said yes,

I said how can I love myself if I am gay,

God said because that is the way I made you,

Nothing will ever matter again.

Does it matter to you???

1st Time - All Man Wear

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my very 1st time 2 draw all man wear...

luv it myself (even sum very cacat)

XD

xxx P@triCk Lai xxx

A massage 4 you

They said that life is what happens
while we're busy making other plan.

One minute we know exactly
where we're going,
then it's as if some mean-spirited little gremlin
has up the road map,
and made off with the spark plugs
just for good measure.

When things get that messed up,
it would be easy to say "whatever"
and just sit down and quit.

But no matter how tempting that might be,
we both know it's not your style.

You have the imagination it takes
to rethink your dream
and the courage to set off again
whatever it's down a detour
or a new road altogether.

The important thing is to keep going
at your own pace,
with rest stops whenever you need them
and pauses now and then
for scenic overlooks.

You're on your way,
even if it's not perfectly clear just where you're headed...

Relax, look around you,
and enjoy the journey.
It's part of who you'll be
when you get there.

New Drawing... still HoT hOt HOT!!!

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By ~ PatiCk Lai

I MISS U

I miss you,
even in mine dream...

I wish I could see you,
each n every days of mine life...

I will hold you this time,
n I ain't gonna let you go again...

I wish I could start all over again,
But I know,
know that i can't change your mind
that you won't be back to me anymore...

Love the sweetest sin...

It's too late now, there's no turning around

I've got my hands in my pocket

and my head is a cloud

This is how I do

When I think of you

I never thought that you could break me apart

I keep a sinister smile and a hold of my heart

You want to get inside

Then you can get in line

But not this time


Cause you caught me off guard

Now I'm running and screaming


I feel like a hero and

you, are my heroine


Do you know that your

love is the sweetest sin...